Ladder to Heaven

(Verse 1) 

My shame has no name no cause or complaints 

He knows my existence and laughs in my face 

And I wish I could blame it on God 

For who I am and what I have lost 

But the guilt of being alive is eating me up 

Chorus)

Will the ghost of all my mistakes haunt me forever?

Will I fall to the earth or piece myself back together?

And if doubt is the only name on my gravestone 

Please dig past the surface and reach for the dreams in my bones 

(Verse 2)

And when I die will the angels count 

The time that I spent outside of myself?

Staring at glass through somebody’s eyes 

What counts as perspective or just wasting my time? 

Is my reality even mine or a collection of things I saw online? 

(Chorus)

Will the ghost of all my mistakes haunt me forever 

Will I fall to the earth or piece myself back together  

And if doubt is the only name on my gravestone 

Please dig past the surface and reach for the dreams in my bones 

(Bridge)

And I can’t get the time back 

was my youth wasted 

That’s all anyone’s been asking 

Or when I’ll start working 

And how do I reckon 

Success on their metrics 

Climb up the ladder to heaven? 

(Chorus)

Will the ghost of all my mistakes haunt me forever 

Will I fall to the earth or piece myself back together  

And if doubt is the only name on my gravestone 

Please dig past the surface and reach for the dreams in my bones